Last night I found myself in a dimly lit music lounge sipping a gin and tonic while listening to a rock ‘n roll band playing loudly and energetically. I turned to Tara and said, over the wailing guitars and pounding drums, “I’m living the life I always wanted.”
Call it a three-chord revelation.
Many years ago, I saw the movie Singles. It centered around a group of twentysomethings in the Pacific Northwest as they dealt with work, relationships and hobbies. I was the exact same age as the main characters when the film came out, but my life couldn’t have been more different. While they were hanging out in clubs and bars listening to music and navigating the minefields of new and complex relationships and following their dreams (those dreams weren’t even working out in the movie, but there was a certain romanticism in the fact that they were trying their damnedest regardless), I had already settled down into a monotonously routine existence that would slowly and methodically stifle me. I was envious of those characters, even if I couldn’t put my finger on the exact reasons why. Now, with the benefit of hindsight, I can fill in the blanks. I won’t go into a lot of details. Let’s just say I wasn’t being true to the person I really am. Fortunately, one day I woke up and realized that, and did something about it. The ensuing years were often a struggle, but look at the end result. Like I said to Tara, I’m living the life I always wanted. It took longer than it should have, but you know what they say: better late than never.
That life isn’t just about rock ‘n roll, though music is a very important part of the equation. We went to two concerts this week – a big arena show with The Black Keys at the Portland Rose Garden on Monday, and a smaller, more intimate gig with a couple of local Northwest bands we both like, Campfire OK and The Lonely Forest, at a much smaller venue – the Doug Fir Lounge on East Burnside Street – Wednesday night. Both were awesome in their own way (and I have the ringing ears to prove it). The Black Keys put on an elaborate, energetic show chock full of lasers and strobe lights and played some of the hookiest, most soulful rock music out there these days. The Doug Fir was small and candlelit and intimate, and the bands were an arm’s length from where we sat. Tara and I bonded over music right from the start, and there will be plenty of concerts in our future. We’ve already got The Shins in Bend over Memorial Day weekend and a few days later, The Moondoggies at another small club in Portland. A mix of popular bands and lesser-known local acts. I like that.
But as I said, this life is about more than just seeing bands play live. It’s about being in a loving relationship where both partners are equals, never take each other for granted, and actually have fun together. We’ve both had our share of less-than-perfect failed relationships, and this has given us a strong appreciation for what we’ve got now. It’s a reason why we’ve never had a single argument or cross word, and still make out like a couple of lovestruck teenagers half a dozen times a day. There’s a passion I’ve never experienced before. The relationship is just one more piece of the puzzle, though. There are so many other components. Friends. Family. Traveling. Hiking. Cooking good food. Following your passions (like self-publishing a novel). And through whatever strange confluence of events, the stars or planets have all lined up almost perfectly (jobs are the last missing link, but I’m confident they’ll fall into place, too). Hence, my comment last night. What’s especially great is recognizing those moments while you’re living them, instead of looking back someday and thinking, “things were going pretty well then.”
Funny how revelations can come from the oddest places. Kite strings and intimate music clubs have made me introspective in the past few days. On Saturday, we’re having a yard sale. Can’t wait to see what kind of wisdom I glean from haggling over the price of a 99-cent apple corer.
Here’s a clip from The Lonely Forest. This is probably their “signature” song and the one they closed the show out with last night. Enjoy!
17 thoughts on “A Three Chord Revelation”
I swear we’ve talked about this film before! But maybe that’s my dyslexic heart playing tricks on me. 😉
So glad you found Tara and that she says gazuntite when you sneeze. You two should totally make some over the top dating videos like the one in Singles. “Come to Debbie Country.” LOL. Seriously though, possibly the best soundtrack ever: that film!
Nope, your heart isn’t dyslexic, Jess. I mentioned this movie once before and I do believe you talked about your love for it then. I’m so happy you like it I’m tempted to buy you a garage door opener!
This was one of your more heartfelt and emotional writings and I truly enjoyed reading it. It’s so wonderful to see God working in both of your lives and if that offends you in anyway than I’m happy. I just see things differently, Mark and when I see things happening that are totally in sync with His will, then I’m overjoyed and that is what I see happening.
I don’t think you could have picked a better mate that what God brought before you and I say the same thing about Tara. Like I said before, two perfect souls that belong together.
This Mom couldn’t be more happy or content and I’m eternally grateful!
Thanks, Tracy! I’d never be offended by anything you say. Well – unless you call me a @#$%^! But that probably won’t happen. Hope your weekend is awesome, and we’ll see you in a few days!
Beautifully expressed post, Mark!
“Like I said to Tara, I’m living the life I always wanted. It took longer than it should have, but you know what they say: better late than never.”
As you know, I’m a firm believer that everything happens when it should, because it’s exactly as you shared….
“the stars or planets have all lined up almost perfectly ”
I believe in my heart that you and Tara are together now because it was the PERFECT time!
““I’m living the life I always wanted.”
Bravo, buddy! And I am sooooooooo happy for both you and Tara!
Have a great yard sale this weekend$$$$
“I believe in my heart that you and Tara are together now because it was the PERFECT time!”
I have to agree with this, Ron. Because it took us forever to meet. And when we did meet for the first time, nothing came of it. But once the timing was perfect, it all worked out!
I am so incredibly happy for you,Mark–for both of you, actually. I think I understand how you feel. Sara and I have been in that place for nearly 6 years, and it is totally amazing!
The fact that you and Sara have been in that place for so long and still going very strong gives me inspiration, Kathy! Thanks for your comment. Hope you two have a fantastic weekend.
So happy for you! Found a quote that I thought you might be able to appreciated a bit: “We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love” 🙂
Great quote! I love it (and it’s very appropriate) (not that either of us is weird) (eh, who am I kidding?). Thanks for sharing!
I’m glad you’re realizing how awesome it is while you’re living it!
That’s the best time to realize it!
I may not have a movie like Singles to reference to, but I can say with total certainty, this is the life I’ve always wanted too. 🙂
Aww. You’re the sweetest! Love you lots, dear. 🙂